I’m curious if this is the last resemblance of democracy the United States will see.

I’m worried for the people stuck in red states, and worried this is going to spread outside America again like it did in 2016. I feel like I must live in a very different world compared to rural americans. I can’t imagine how a fascist authoritarian would be the logical choice ever.

I am autistic and in my country I’ve been told before by my case worker that I qualify for MAID. This cruel world just isn’t meant for people like me, and I am now starting the application process for MAID.

Terrified I’ll never get to vote again. Terrified it’s all going to get worse. Terrified for my unborn child.

Lol

Absolutely horrible. Keeps getting worse. But hey some good news, at least I won’t be alive when the US of A finally fucking implodes on itself due to recent events. 🤬 Bigots and fascists; and this is what I served for, to ‘protect’?? Fuck ya’ll.

Sad, disappointed, and worried.

Absolutely fucking shit.

Sorry. I thought things would be different. Sorely disappointed is an understatement.

Good so far. My wife and are currently in Miami waiting for our connecting flight to Jamaica. We have been looking forward to this for months. Getting everything ready was stressful but we are very excited. This will be my first time leaving the US.

About to get a lot worse!

not great

but about to play some gameboy so that’s good

Slept <5h each day since last Wednesday.

Fucking tired. Sleep hygiene rules don’t help.

Will probably try sleep meds today.

I voted early. My partner voted today. Took 2 hours. We both have anxiety because of the 2016 result. All the polls were looking good, then we woke up in what felt like the wrong reality.

It’s all everyone is talking about. At work, in my apartment building. Even the sports bar down the block had election coverage on. It’s unavoidable and inescapable. I’m watching a movie to distract myself. Then I’ll turn on the news once the polls start to close.

I was an election judge in 2020. I’m kind of feeling guilty for not doing it this year. But I don’t have the capacity. I’ve been feeling straight up burnt out for most of the year with no end in sight. I’m actually thinking about calling the employer EAP.

I always celebrate all the wins in life , no matter how small. October and so far November have not had any of these. I really hope I wake up with good news.

Time to sleep, hopefully when I wake up the USA isn’t at civil war 🤞

Dropped off my absentee ballot earlier today.

Update on Linus (our kitty who experienced kidney failure last week): Last I posted we were waiting to find out how much his numbers had gone up. It turns out his creatine went up quite a bit. It was over 3, when normally it should be 1.5 or lower. The vet said at this point it’s possible it could go back down (he didn’t seem optimistic about this), stay the same, or go up more. We’re taking him in again on Thursday to see what it is then. If it stays the same, we probably only have about two or three years left with him if we keep him on a renal diet.

He has a lot of his personality back and has his full appetite back (yesterday was the first time he ate his usual amount of food since he’s been hospitalized), but his energy level is definitely lower than it was before.

got my early vote in on friday, since i suspected the lines were going to be long today.

today is my birthday. 🥳

sheepdog festival last weekend was great. echo got to hang out and get a billion pets from all kinds of people, which is her favorite thing! she also had her first hotel stay, which went really well. she only barked three times (at the shower).

last night, our first rally submission was recorded, which i sent in today for judging. pretty sure we’ll get a passing score, easy peasy. i want to look into some more virtual titles we can do, since i get ring stress pretty bad. 😅