It’s crazy what’s been happening lately. I have a relatively big family and, honestly I don’t know a whole of them, but in the past two weeks two extended family members passed. Then, this morning, I just got the news that my aunty whom I’ve known all my life passed.

Whats going on? Why are so many people dying? In the past year I’ve lost 4 family members. All to sickness or to some sort of external factor.

I wish I was like John Coffey. I’m not religious, in fact God can fuck off, but I wish I could get healing powers. Imagine what life would be like if instead of dying, grieving, crying, people can celebrate, smile, laugh. Parents can see their sick children grow to be adults. People can see the world instead of seeing it through the windows from a bed. People can walk with their families instead of wheeling by their side. If I had supernatural healing powers, like the people in the movies I watch and video games I play, that could all be possible.

I often think that life is a punishment. Being able to live isn’t a gift. It feels more like a curse.