It’s weird. The simple fact of being watched and told what you can say. And the possibility that what you’re saying is being edited and what you’re hearing is edited too.
This strikes me as abhorrent. But most of the people here call it necessary, preferable and even desirable.
What do you want? To be private or avoid censorship?
You haven’t been censored in the sense that it’s plain for me to see from your post history you’ve been on a crusade against “them” in the past couple weeks. Some of your posts were unpopular but they haven’t been removed. I am “watching you” in the sense that I can see that post history, but I know nothing of you aside from that.
On people “telling you what you can say”, it’s just as much a right for people to express what they do and don’t want to listen to as much as it’s your right to express yourself. (And as a sidenote: the Canadian standard of application of your rights has been within “reasonable limits” since the adoption of the Charter in the 80s).
The design of lemmy is that there is not one set of rules to do or not do unlike Reddit. If you are not happy with how you are treated on one server, leave and join local communities on another, or start your own.