It’s good to strive to rise above societal programming but don’t be so hard on yourself for succumbing to it! Most people really need outside validation and I don’t think there’s anything inherently wrong with that, it’s very human. We’re social creatures it’s incredibly important to our development as individuals and as a species.
The other thing I’ll say is that often times unhealthy lifestyles can really affect you mentally. I know good food and exercise help my mental state a lot (even though I kinda disdain the concept).
Bethesda has QA testers?