

Jesus dude, sorry to hear that. Sincerely.
I know it doesn’t feel like it now, but things will get better. It will take time, and I know you’ve heard that before, but I promise you it’s true. It will take longer than you think, but each day will get a little easier than the next. Stay the course, and know that it will get better.
It’s OK to feel helpless, and like your whole life is over, but I promise you it’s not. And it’s also OK to feel suicidal, that’s normal unfortunately. Please reach out to someone to talk to, a friend, a counselor, or hell, call 988 for the hotline to talk to someone about it. It helps.
You will get through this, your kids will still love you as long as you prioritize their well being and spend time with them whenever you can. The marriage collapsing is not your fault, it always takes 2 and your spouse is just as responsible.
It’s going to take time to figure all this out. Like real time, on the scale of years. Humans are stronger than we think to recover from things like this, it just takes time.
I work in the library system. This is so stupid and will do so much damage. Fuck musk and trump. Fuck them in their traitor nazi fascist narcissistic stupid face.
Edit: is there some sort of pro trump/musk bot that just goes around downvoting anything negative said about them or something?