I just want to say, I am so so so sorry you had to see that.
I accidentally saw some CSAM in the 1990s and you are right, it is burnt into your mind. It’s the real limit case of “what has been seen cannot be unseen” - all I could do was learn to avoid accessing those memories.
If you can access counselling for this, that might be a good option. Vicarious trauma is a real phenomenon.
I just want to say, I am so so so sorry you had to see that.
I accidentally saw some CSAM in the 1990s and you are right, it is burnt into your mind. It’s the real limit case of “what has been seen cannot be unseen” - all I could do was learn to avoid accessing those memories.
If you can access counselling for this, that might be a good option. Vicarious trauma is a real phenomenon.