You can’t blame yourself for how you feel or how it affects you. You might, like me, be too tough on yourself.
The only real advice I can give is to make sure you reflect on all the positive things you gain from therapy. Think about stuff therapist have recommended you to do, do them and think about how it improved your life. Even if it’s just a minor improvement.
And always remember it’s okay to not be okay.
Me. I have days where I can’t see the end, can’t enjoy things I used to like. But I force myself to go outside, go to the supermarket or whatever. Just this tiny walk every day has made the number of horrible days so much less. The days thermselves still suck really bad but they are further apart. On this day, I allow myself to feel sorry for myself and try my best to act cheerful for my wife and get out of her way quickly so that my negative mood doesn’t affect her too much.
Bottom line: just think about how therapy has had a positive effect on you. I have no experience with group sessions, but considering one of them has an effect on you, try to find out if any of them have experienced positive effects from your input. You might feel better about therapy itself if you know you’re helping others.
But as a final thought I’d like to second what was said in the other comment. It is imperative that you talk to one of the therapists and explain what you are experiencing. Maybe in a few months, you’ll be able to share this with the group and explain how you got through it.
Keep at it and focus on the positive.
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