Lost a job to specifically to this. Fired me because i was too angery. I’m not angry. I’m busy working as a line cook. I’m speaking directly whilst juggling a half dozen thing’s. But whatever

Slowly descending deeper into despair. My life’s only getting worse the world’s getting worse. I have nothing and can’t find anything worth living for or anything to even reasonably distract from this pain… So basically nothing new.

This is gonna be like the Panama Papers where nothing major actually happens to anyone and the status quo will be maintained or get worse not better

That’s actually pretty common. Being suicidal is very often about wanting to escape from the endless negativity that hurts you. Death is an ultimate escape from all of that. however The self preservation often kicks in. It’s a survival instinct to wanna avoid death and no matter how much people wanna avoid pain part of our brains will scream death is worse. I don’t know what you are going through but atleast know you aren’t the only one suffering. Many who suffer would gladly share what positivity they could with you. Many people do find there way through the pain and I dearly hope you can too