I’ve been nuking my online presence on big tech platforms, and among the biggest data sources are my Google accounts, including the one I used for watching YouTube.
Using a service they provide for exporting data, I was able to download a list of every video I’ve ever watched since mid-2020. How many of them were there?
Fifty-four thousand.
I have watched more than 54,000 videos since mid-2020.
I knew that I was chronically online and became complacent due to my disabilities, but seeing it laid bare like this suddenly made it feel much more real.
I am awake an average of 15 hours a day. That’s 5,475 hours per year. It’s not unreasonable to assume that I spend around 15 minutes on each video on average, especially given that I often read comments. So that’s about 13,500 hours for all of the videos.
That means that, since 2020 alone, more than two entire years’ worth of my waking hours have been consumed by YouTube.
Two full years of my life, gone. From just YouTube. And the worst part? I hardly remember any of it. Out of all of those videos, I remember maybe 10 or 20 of them off the top of my head. The remaining 99.9% of them were just noise. Void. Nothingness.
How many novel experiences could I have had during that time? How many thought-provoking books could I have read? How many interesting people could I have met? I don’t want to know.
I’ve always felt like there was something wrong about it being 2025 already. It feels like it should be much earlier in the decade. But I think I finally know why: I have created very few memories in the past five years, because most of my time was spent staring at monotonous and forgettable Internet content. That’s why time has gone by so quickly.
Instead of trying new things, engaging with enriching material, and meeting new friends, I allowed my time to be siphoned off by an attention-hungry algorithm that doesn’t care about the incalculable damage it’s doing to millions of lives. I am not the first one to have these regrets, and I certainly won’t be the last.
Never again.
I don’t say this to downplay your experience, but as a more positive way to look at it. Maybe you couldn’t have come to this realization without having gone through this. Maybe you didn’t waste your time, and you didn’t miss out on anything, because you were doing what seemed right at the time and now you’ve learned from it. You wouldn’t have this new clarity without having gone through the darkness.
That’s what I was thinking, too. Spending so much time on the Internet and observing the consequences ultimately radicalized me against it in a way that more casual usage probably wouldn’t have.
The chances of someone as weird as me coming along and convincing me to quit doomscrolling was probably pretty low, lol. So maybe this was exactly what I needed to do!